1981 (#20) - Julia's pregnancy, doubts about fatherhood and Victor's childhood

Meanwhile, after severe nausea, Julia discovers she's pregnant. At first the woman is on cloud nine and is overjoyed by the news, which is the realization of all her dreams. However, shortly afterwards she realizes that the baby she is carrying might not be Victor's baby, but Michael's. Julia then lets herself go from despair and discouragement, not knowing what to do or whether or not to inform Michael. In any case, the woman, unaware that Victor has undergone a vasectomy, announces to Victor that she is pregnant. The last thing Victor would have wanted to hear is that of Julia's pregnancy; especially now that he was certain that it is not his child. Victor, therefore, does not accept well his wife's pregnancy and is now convinced of Julia's infidelity. Later, however, he is informed by the doctors that the vasectomy does not guarantee the absolute safety of the failure, so Julia's baby could also be his own, especially since the conception took place around the time of the operation, but it is not certain whether it took place before or after. In any case, Victor, whether or not the baby is his, tells Julia to choose between him and the baby, forcing her to have an abortion. But Julia protests and throws herself at Victor, accusing him of being insensitive and thinking just about himself. It is at this point that Victor reveals that he hates the idea of having children because he fears not being a good parent, just as his were not to him. Albert Miller and Cora Miller's son, Christian, Victor's real name, is the last of three children, after Matthew and Reinette. At his birth, however, Albert abandoned his family and Cora left him in an orphanage where he spent the first ten years of his life. After he left there, Christian changed his name to Victor, a name that must always remind him of his revenge, and Newman, as a symbol of rebirth and a new man, as he has become since then. From that moment on, Victor never trusted anyone again, relying only on himself, until he met Julia. She is moved by her husband's story, which she had never heard before, and embraces him. Victor, then, later apologizes for all the pain he caused her, recognizing that she is the only person who has ever loved him; he then tells Julia that he wants the child, convinced that he will turn out to be a better person than his father.